Do I love to live

Curious, this thing living. Born to Die, had to live to make that happen. Why born at all? Why lived it all? What is death? On my tombstone if I were going to have one, which I’m not. there would be a printed date stating when I was born then a dash and then a printed date of death my name and possibly some kind word from some kind person. But on the entire headstone tombstone whatever you want to call it in my eyes it’s the dash that’s the most important. For some reason the rest is irrelevant because the dash represents what I did in life. It doesn’t say what I did, there’s no hidden message in a dash but there’s a lifetime of meaningful and/or un meaningful actions and inactions. Relationships both broken and intact, however many days a person is on this planet is a part of that Dash and what they did during those days is a so unclear. I have so many questions and so few answers I guess that’s where my faith must come in, I don’t really know what my Dash represents, I mean, like if somebody were to examine my life, what would it say? What would they find? Was I kind? Was I generous? Did I do unto others as I’d like them to do under me? Did I love anything with my whole heart besides myself? Did I even love myself? Was I lovable? Was I likeable? Did I help anyone at all? Yes I was born to die, and yes that Dash oh that Dash is not in Braille and there’s no words so I’m going to call it faith because I don’t know what it represents not truly! My ideas of right or wrong, good or bad, up or down, left or right etc etc are so skewed by borrowed beliefs from people I know or don’t know, they are skewed by World Views and self-centeredness, desires sad to sorrow happy joy all very self-centered so what I think is being good person or good human or having a good Dash maybe the exact opposite and perhaps someday I’ll understand what my Dash meant but for today I just stay in confusion and hold on with every ounce of my strength to Faith.

7 responses to “Do I love to live”

  1. Interesting thoughts. I think practicing kindness and tolerance, helping when you can, avoid hurting people, not being mean, telling the truth, will matter in the long run, even though you will not see any of it yourself, like a dash invisible to you.

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    1. I think you probably have a lovely Dash


  2. I very much appreciate your comment, most the time I overanalyze things take to heart what people say and dissect it challenge it sometimes keep it for myself sometimes discard it as rubbish but in your case I like what you had to say and I don’t have to do any of that mundane mind numbing skull racking time consuming stuff. I like you, I hope we can be friends. 🙂

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    1. Thank you for your kind words and certainly we can be friends.

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  3. If you ever want to run ideas or thoughts past me, feel free to get in touch my email is I don’t profess to be an expert in any shape or form, but I will always try to be constructive and to help if I possibly can. To be honest, reading your postings, I don’t think you need help, but a little support goes a long way. Meanwhile, take care and keep safe. Bob

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    1. Well first of all I’m having a real hard time coming up with that initial bio because honestly I’ve done nothing I’ve got nothing published I’ve submitted a ton of stuff and got rejected which I expected and it didn’t hurt my feelings the only thing that’s ever been featured or sold or praised has been my actual artwork but what I want to do is write I just don’t know what to put in a bio


    2. And thank you by the way it’s a very generous offer


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